"Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless, like water. Now, you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle. You put it in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow, or it can crash! Be water, my friend..'
:Bruce Lee:
Tis mornin had jiu cheng gao (noya - nine layered cake) made by my boyfriend's auntie... it was sweet n ain oily like those sold in the shops... he was tired of it after the 3rd piece while I was still enjoyin mine. Later I realised it was because his mom got him larger pieces... 1 of his = 2 of mine... ekekek....
but worryin he ain full yet cant finish his portion. I decided to 'trade' wif him. My 1 last small piece wif 2 of his. Anyway, I could still take it as tea break wherelse he ain free later till lunchtime le...
~felt tempted to learn frm his auntie but surely he's gonna tell me to cook for him to eat first...
but me haf nv nv step into the kitchen for a long time le... sigh... noes tat he reali wish I cld cook 4 him... As the saying says : "to get into a man's heart is thru his stomache". I thought to do so too but juz got e phobia... wat if... oh nvm....
I'll get over it sumhow... I'm sure I can work my way into e kitchen, juz need to figure out who's kitchen to b my lab rat... ekek....
"tHoU wE hArDlY mEEt,
iT dOeSn'T mEaN tt U r 4gOttOeN.
cOz, U hAf Nv LeFt My MiNd...
4 u'R aLwAyS sUmBoDy.... So SpEcaL
& nc3 2 Me !!"
"LovE AlwayS StartS FrM FrenshiP.
BuT WheN e LovE EndS,
It WilL NeveR GeT BacK To FrenshiP AgaiN..."
Oh my, oh my... recently seemed like e season of love..
everyone's fallin in n out of love (FYI: me included...ekek ~ If ya still in e dark...wondering wat's happening... i'm gg into e 2nd month of my relationship already... still honeymoonin.....)
but seemed like not every 'story' ends up happily ever after... already since school reopened... i've already heard of 3 sad endings...
nevertheless, i wuld like 2 tell e girls to bUcK UP!! those worthless guys haf missed out e greatest love of their life by losin u girls... N girls, there's beta guys out there for u to pick n choose... Always learn frm ur failures....<hint: my bf got rejected 3 X in a span of 4 mths?? b4 i said yes... "sori dear" c",)> It's nv a smooth road 2 success...
rite now, work hard n study well... when u complete ur studies, u'll b e one choosin e guys instead of them pickin u up. :> i noe u'll b happi den.... u'll find e guy of ur dreams... n he'll b e one u least expected...
EvErY mOrNiNg HaS :- a NeW bEgInNiNg....
a NeW bLeSsInG....
a NeW hOpE....
&
iTs A pErFeCt DaY cOz ItS gOd'S GIFT
HaF a BlEsSeD n PeRfEcT dAy !! :)
It's a grey day... so thought I shld use its colour too..... :) It's been raining since 5.30am how nice it wuld b if m still lyin in bed... ahhhh.....
Finally got e words tat I'll b renewin e contract as a regular... in state of a casual employee... e term sounded weird. But...watever. So long as I got my days off n MC... who cares.
Though a little heart pain tat there wun b e pay rise as discussed but at least I could still get 2 c e students 4 another year... sumtimes reali cant bear 2 leave them...yet they'll make u 'pull ur hair' @ times.... ekek... hopefully they noe where m comin frm. sigh....
guess tat's it for today... maybe will write summore later ba... cya
cherios, jo
Sian....
tOdAy wHeN i wanted to rewrite my CD again to add in more new songs tat I dowNloaDed, I realised tat it's EMPTY!!!!! shucks!!!!!!!!
tink it's the stupid adminstrator rites... me cant access burnin thru the student access... OMG!!!!
dunno wait to do while waiting for nick n huan qing to finish playing Zero Hour. though I juz share a little quote wif ya ppl once more :)
"A star has 5 ends,
A square has 4 ends,
A triangle has 3 ends,
A line has 2 ends,
Life has 1 end.
Yet OUR FRENSHIP has NO END !!"
cherios, Jo (Hurri Up NicK !! I waNNa Go Hm !!)
Sigh Sigh Sigh... thought juz finished writing my "Ying Yue Ri Zi", could take a breather n chk sum emails.... ended up received 2 emails frm my teacher-in-charge.
We were discussing abt renewing my contract wif the school tat's suppose to cease by end of tis month... Her reply was wif regards of the new contract, that instead of a payrise, there'll still be my official 7 days leave and 14 days MC to take. But to sign wif the new contract, I've got to officially end my current contract on 28th July 2004 and resign the new one beginning 1st August 2004. If you noe ur dates well.... tat would mean 2 days of freedom for me... !! y? coz there's still 29th n 30th of july which is the last thurs n fri of the month too.... kinda like haf a long long weekend n a well deserved break for me... ekek
but then, i m also worried for my grp of students (u noe who u r) who often comes to the cybrary to study and hang ard... where they gonna go for these 2 days... wat will happen to them??? ekek.... maybe i sound too drama.... lolz...
hmm.... we'll c wat's the reply on monday n decide frm there then.... tat's all for nw then... there's still the problem @ my uncle's medical shop... the never ending story.... but...that's another story to be told...
so long for now.. tata .. take care...
OnE dAy...
I'll BuY u A dOzEn RoSeS & tIe DeM iN a BuNdLe.
I'll PuT a PlAsTiC rOsE iN e MiddLe &
TeLL u OuR fReNsHiP eNdS e DaY dAt LaSt RoSe WiTheRs.
Juz heard Tis oVeR e radio in e mornin... thought i shld share it... :)
It was written by a girl named: Ah Xiang.
I haf a good fren called Ah Wei... We haf known each other since back in primary school. He has always been there for me. Often asking if I haf eaten, if not he'll buy sumthing 4 me. If my basketball competition is nearin, he would company me, help train my skills, etc etc.... These things tat he's doing often lead me to think he was trying to prove sumthing..... to be more than frens....
Then the day comes.... my birthday.... he din appear for my party...nor did he sent me any sms... I was feeling sad.... no matter wat....we r frens for so long.... cant be tat he forgot abt my birthday??!!
As I was heading home aft e party....i realised it was pouring outside n I din bring my umbrella... Juz den I saw a shadow approachin me... it was him... it was Ah Wei. He came aft all......
He walked up to me and wished me 'Happy Birthday' n said there's sumthing he's got to say.... I was all excited.... was he goin to say it... is he gonna admit tat he too haf feelings for me....!!! He den revealed a package from behind him and said... "It is for U... sumthing especially made for U. U've got to open it at home... I've put in alot of effort to make tis n I reali do mean it frm the bottom of my heart.
When I was back home... Boy was I depressed.... Wondering why couldn't he juz said he liked me... wat's wif tis present tat he juz gave me.... Does he reali juz treat me as a fren.. Have I reali made a mistake all tis while....?? Den I opened up e present, thinking maybe he has a confession inside... maybe I could get my answer thur the present.... but when I open up the present.... there was only a piece of curtain... tried tippin the box n flipping the curtain but there was nothing else... except for the white coloured curtain... "Wat was he thinking abt makin this curtain for me?? Wat was he trying to get to...???" Immediately I called him up... but he din wanted to tell me... he said it's a surprise n i'm to find it out on my own...
1 year passed... but still I couldn't figure out wat was it wif the curtain that Ah Wei gave me on my birthday... Den my senior confessed his love for me... but I was still thinkin of Ah Wei...still hoping he is the one for me.... But thinkin back....it has been 1 year n he still wouldn't tell me wat's wif the curtain.... nor did he made any move to let me noe that he too is interested in me... maybe, juz maybe... it's time to let go... for me to move on... thus.. I sms Ah Wei... askin if we r still frens n hint if it was gonna be forever... then he replied, "Yes". At e moment, I was heartbroken... but I replied, " So you wouldn't fall for you, rite? If not you'll be a tortise." He then replied, "Yah, who ever fall for the other person will be the tortise..."
Then wif tat promise, I agreed to my senior... and after 2 months, I told Ah Wei about it. Instead of congratulating me. He asks me a qn tat got me stunned - "Do you really love him?" I din noe how to answer him... but eventually I said 'Yes, I do love him'. Soon after, he too had a girlfren but broke up later... coz the girl felt tat Ah Wei wsa pitying her due to her health condition n not tat he truely loved her. Upon hearing tat, I too had doubt abt my relationship n was too often quarreling wif my boyfren.
Almost into a year of relationship, I too got out of it. First person I called to seek comfort from was Ah Wei.
(Tis was where things changed)..... He asked if I still wanted to noe abt the secret within the curtain. I told him off.... A secret tat had been kept for more than 2 years... tat I've well forgotten abt it.. But since he mentioned... "Of course, I still want to know." Then he gave me a clue, "When the light n shadow joins hand in hand, tat's when happiness could be found..."
Tis curtain which have been wif me for the past 2 years... Had nothing sewn or painted on... But now... wat does it means... wat is the meanin of "when light n shadow joins hand in hand"... Juz den, e paper I was lookin for flew onto the floor n I could see sparks of sunlight shone on it. On a second glance, I realised tat it was from the curtain....
How stupid could I get...!! Now I noe wat tat hint was abt... the sun shines upon the curtain and the shadows formed thru the tiny holes tat were created by purpose makes up words tat could be seen...!! Upon readin wat was on it...my tears fell....
"Wondering how long it's gonna take for you to see tis... Might b 6mths, 1 year or 2 years... I dunno. But I'm sure tat I'm really in love wif you. Juz like how I've put my heart and soul to craved these words into the curtain. And wish for you to think the same way too."phew... dinner's over wif my boyfriend's family. wondered wat the parents might think of me....
was kinda tense when I 1st step into his house... his mom was sittin there watchin TV n i din noe wat to say after i greeted her...
we were alone for a couple of minutes n i juz continued to pack stuff in my bag while waitin for him to be back from the kitchen...
afterwhich he brought me up to e bedrm where he n his 2 other brothers shares. then we sat down n watched VCD 2gether wif his younger brother...
juz as we were finishin the movie... his dad came home n we all got ready to leave for the temple to have the 'feast'... at e door i tried to make conversation wif his mom by askin how cum e eldest brother ain hm yet... she mentioned tat he went back school for a swim n ain back home... maybe we'll meet him there. (okay, tat wasn't tat bad ain it?... ekek...)
then dinner was served and we chat abt the food n the items tat were being auction.... the most expensive item bid was an urn tat went out for S$10, 008 !!!!! gosh.....
